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[21 Mar 2004|12:53am]

As if now my journal is going to be friends only. Which sucks cuz most of my friends dont have journals, but i wanna know whos looking at it just in case so if ur a friend and dont want to make a journal just ask my for my pw!

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dweeb [19 Mar 2004|11:20pm]
-jeffs here!

-darin (with an I) hasnt called me once today! haha surprising!

-me and emily are going to cali over spring break! O NO U DI'NT

-haha i just had 2 double size rock stars...i think im gonna puke those things are so nasty

-i cant wait for 2morrow!!

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*PISSED* [19 Mar 2004|09:30pm]
Gr i want to go to bella ba taga (haha i have a feeling i spelled that so wrongly) with ashley and kelsey to seek out men but i had to baby sit.

--But hey im seeing em at freddies 2morrow! i have such a busy weekend, im going to kelseys tomorrow then i think brianna is giving us a ride to freddies with ashley then me and kelsey are....going to live with a homeless guy? ha jk but then i have to go see kyle and tanner, and im suppose to go to a party with melanie and i think im seeing charlie also. God damn.

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WhOOpWhOOp [19 Mar 2004|03:26pm]
whos all going to freddies party 2morrow! Oh and fyi i might not be online at all this week!!!!! so call me if u needa talk! or hang!

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*today* [18 Mar 2004|10:55pm]

today was actually the best day iv had in a while... first i walked into school where sum1 had posted all my pics of ash and emily making out around the school...haha it was funny as hell. Then during lunch me and emily had sum fun...ok after school tho hah it was awsome cuz alot of us stayed for the wrestling matches... --me and kelsey got there and freddie was payin us to pinch the ingle wood guys asses but we chickend out of course! then we wondered around doing random things than i just sat with michaela natalie sade katie kristi and mb for like 5 minutes just doin nothing haha then i got bored and got up right as the power went out so i went to find kelsey and we ran outside in the rain and stole this bike and through it down a hill haha but it didnt fall it stood up the whole time then ran into sum cars...so we ran. lol then we were watchin the matches and a light falls from the gym ceiling...evergreen is so cheap! then of course the power goes out again so we just sat there with the guys...then my mom came to pick me and kelsey up :( lol it was really fun today though oh BTW

I LOVE GABRIELLA J WOLAM THE UNIVERSE AND BACK THEN BACK THEN BACK AND ALL OVER AGAIN! BABY GIRL I LOVE YEA TONS!! IM ALWAYS HERE FOR YEA!! YOULL ALWAYS BE MY BEST FRIEND BABE!!!!!!!!!!!! (ohyea by the way my lines are better.....my turky drawing was also!)

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*oh man* [18 Mar 2004|10:44pm]

This really lifted my spirtis...READCollapse )


 

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*confused with life* [16 Mar 2004|09:23pm]
Isnt it kinda funny how much iv over blown with happiness? That for the first time in my life i think i may be headed towards something...

i thought theyd be happy for me
i dont understand my family

Why sit there and talk about how much im going no where in life and make fun of me for being nothing, yet NO ONE in my family has ever done good in life.

my g-pa is the news paper man
my g-ma works for special ed
my uncle adam is ups
my unlce ryan is unemployed
my uncle john is unemployed
my mom is a 4th grade teacher who has 4 kids no child suport and still lives wit her mom and dad....as do the rest of the poeple i listed.

I cant stand living here any longer. I love my family to death but i HATE how they treat other people

I wanna move with my daddy....
i love my daddy and i want to get to know him
i think thats partly why iv been so stressed latly. the fact that my mom made him suffer his whole life and hes still living off it makes me feel terribly. ughh i want my daddy so bad!

i want to move in with him but yet.......could i really leave my lil bros with this family and let them be unhappy? i dont think id ever forgive myself if they ever got hurt, or grew up like i did. If only they could come with me......i mean iv only been raising them since i was 7 years old. Youd think id have some say. yea wutever....i hate this feeling of knowing ur going no where. I cant leave my bros, but yet i cant stay....god.

in other news im getting my nipples pierced with my one and only.


Other than all that shit my day was prety good till the point i got home...
--i love going to school. I love my friends more then they could ever know.
Iv been talkin to dustin a lot latly....omg i love that kid to the moon and back! Hes such an awsome friend!

--ok more later

FYI FYI never ask sum1 if their italian...they might take it offencive!

me and emily "SEAN ARE YOU ITALIAN!"
sean "WHAT! WTF....YOU KNOW WHAT I TAKE THAT OFFENSIVE! I HAVE BLUE EYES BLONDE HAIR...ETC"
me and emily...."Never again!"

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*PICS OF MY ROOM!!* [14 Mar 2004|09:36pm]

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haha ok im done now but im posting more 2morrow so deal with it bitch! lol jkjkjk i love u all

 

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*freakin weirdnessssss* [14 Mar 2004|09:23pm]
Oh man so i was talkin to this random guy....then i found out he lives in washington right? Then i found he lives in redmond...AND IN BROADHURST WHICH IS MY NEIGHBORHHOOOD....grr haha its scary...


--anyways today i had to wake up early for all my running around then i got home at like 1 and fell back asleep then woke up at like 3 to baby sit my lil bros....haha then i took em to the Woods house so they could play with luke.....so yes for an enjoyable 2 hours i got to watch 4 lil boy playing playstation and dinosuars...haha

--ok so later on my g-parents got home and BRAD, CEZON, AND JERAMY...all came over haha it was awsome!!!! we only hung out and talked for like 10 minutes though cuz i had to go get my bros a haircut and benjamin wont get it done unless sum1 holds his hand...haha weird kid...alrghty ill wrote more later i gotta shower and get readt fo school!

i love you all so incredible much! im gonna be posting pictures on here 2morrow. :p

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GR [14 Mar 2004|04:40am]
haha i have a big day 2morrow...well today actually haha i cant go to sleep!! its like 4:40 am!!! SUM1 CALL ME haha

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*hey look! i fell in the pond!* [13 Mar 2004|04:02pm]

 


 You know sometimes i wonder...why some people think their a mistake if their still alive today. If they have people that care and love them. Why do some people hate life so bad when all u have to do is accept it to be happy. My life is not good. My life is not the greatest. And i will probably never meet someone who has been through what i have.
It just makes me mad when i see people complaining about how much their life sucks. I mean if youv been through hell, and can acept it, you know you can do something in life. I dont get why people let the bad things get to them. Why cant they just see how special they are and be proud of themselves at how far theyv made it? How can they torture themselves when it wasnt their fault? When it wasnt them who made the mistake? I just wish that some people could see how special they are in their own way. And can be proud of themselves for making it.


--Or maybe this is just my way of trying to forget what they did to me. Or maybe its just me wondering why some people have to go through hell and others dont.

 

...Or maybe im just scared that i know hes after me...and i know hes gonna try to kill me, or my family. Iv never been able to get close to someone because of him. Cuz i know if the day were to come hed probably kill them too. I just want him to leave.

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*dont hate the playa, hate the game* -dustin [12 Mar 2004|10:14pm]
*****TODAY WAS THE FUCKING AWSOMEST DAY EVER**************


--OMG haha me and emily had so much fun partying tonight! haha and people started givng us beads to flash! hahaha then brian jewel and his friend came up and started like strip dancing around us! hahahahaha omg we were so dead sexy! other than the fact i pulled in a mucle in gymnastics and could hardly move, i did pretty well!!! muahahahha

--ok we danced with tyler almost the whole night....hahah for those of u who dont know tyler broke his leg and has to be in a wheel chair rofl so we were like dacning with a wheelchair.....rofl!

--OMG we were like freak dancing with tyler jackson comes up and takes a very naughty picture! ROFl it was horrible!!

--jason looked sad today :(

--HAHA ME EMILY SAVANNAH KELSEY ASHLEY M ASHLEY R AND KRISTIN were all freak dancing together, it was awsome!

--OMG......seriously dustin and me were dancing and omg god he got me so horny! haha
"alex whyd u stop dancing with him!"
"I COULDNT TAKE IT! HE GOT ME TO HORNY!"
^^rofl

--Emily was my man!

-- haha me and tanner also had sum fun....counrty dancing? rofl hes so funny

--yea yea then we al had to leave....lol but me and dustin got stuck there for another like half hour so we hun gout! rofl
"dont hate the playa, hate the game!"
^ahhh i seriously love this kid! hes so awsome to hang out with!!!!!!!! I mean like seriously! haha i love u babe!!!! im happy u and halie got back together!!!!!!!!! mucho love!!

--ill add more lata

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moneys!! NO WAIT HIPPOS! [10 Mar 2004|09:41pm]
today was so boring


i only have a week to live! haha brad is going to fullfill my live week with funness! hes also my body guard haha

omg i feel so fucking horrible i got misael suspended! i had no clue why he was asking me that so it didnt help! im so sry <3!


I NEED TO GROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Ericmtm2: it is fun to talk 2 you because you used 2 always be depressed and stuff and now your happy, cool and fun to talk 2 !





partyoutloud69: haha charlkies would be a weird name
TikkiChick425: haha i kno
partyoutloud69: ha i should name my kid that
TikkiChick425: lol thats the name of are turkey!! YEA!!
partyoutloud69: YAY!!!!!!!!!
partyoutloud69: haha
partyoutloud69: well first
partyoutloud69: u gotta stop screwin the judge
TikkiChick425: haha i cant
partyoutloud69: =-O
partyoutloud69: havent i been good enough for u yet?
TikkiChick425: no u r its just i need more!!
TikkiChick425: I MISSED U!
TikkiChick425: haha
partyoutloud69: psh...sure
partyoutloud69: u probably fantasisng about the judge
TikkiChick425: who told u ?!?!
partyoutloud69: so its true!
partyoutloud69: what will i tell charlkie!
TikkiChick425: tell him....mommy has a "special friend"
partyoutloud69: itll break his heart!
TikkiChick425: haha well he will just have to deal
partyoutloud69: =-O
partyoutloud69: lol
TikkiChick425: lol that looks like u wanna suck cock!!!
partyoutloud69: how dare yea break charlkies heart like that!
TikkiChick425: haha
partyoutloud69: ROFL!
TikkiChick425: haha
partyoutloud69: oh time for alex artistic to come!
partyoutloud69: =-O(=====
partyoutloud69: I DID IT!!!!!
TikkiChick425: HAHA ALEX U NASTY PERV!




Ericmtm2: i love you
Ericmtm2: (online)
Ericmtm2: lol
xoAli3Babixo: u love me online? lol well thanks
Ericmtm2: ok then
Ericmtm2: i always love you
xoAli3Babixo: aww lol
Ericmtm2: day and night online and offline after school and before school
Ericmtm2: lol
xoAli3Babixo: wow haha i feel so loved?
Ericmtm2: :-*
Ericmtm2: you can be the queen of redmond
Ericmtm2: and a tree can be a king
xoAli3Babixo: so..im married to a tree?
Ericmtm2: yes
xoAli3Babixo: haha awsome!
Ericmtm2: and i'm the kid who steals your stuff
Ericmtm2: and i cut your husbend down
xoAli3Babixo: =-O
xoAli3Babixo: hiw dare yea
Ericmtm2: to late
xoAli3Babixo: we were were having a baby yea know!
Ericmtm2: u had sex with a tree
Ericmtm2: that must have been rough
Ericmtm2: did it hurt ?
xoAli3Babixo: yea actually his trunk was a couple feet too big for me but we managed
Ericmtm2: yiur pussy must hurt
Ericmtm2: i bet it is all torn and needs stiches
xoAli3Babixo: haha ok this conversation is over
Ericmtm2: your the queen and i'm the king now lol
xoAli3Babixo: woohoo so we're married?
Ericmtm2: yes
Ericmtm2: we have been married 10 years
xoAli3Babixo: awsome!
xoAli3Babixo: damn
xoAli3Babixo: we got married when we were 4?
Ericmtm2: yes
Ericmtm2: i'm glad you could do the math
xoAli3Babixo: haha yea it took me a while
Ericmtm2: i lied
Ericmtm2: we have only been maried 3 years
xoAli3Babixo: 11?
Ericmtm2: yes
Ericmtm2: we live we live in a shack out in the woods
xoAli3Babixo: but i married u for money! what happend to our castle?!
Ericmtm2: osoma ran a donky into it and it fell over
xoAli3Babixo: whos osoma?
Ericmtm2: osoma binloden
Ericmtm2: i can't spell it
xoAli3Babixo: =-O
Ericmtm2: we adoped 2 kids from mexico
Ericmtm2: they fight always
Ericmtm2: so we put them in the shed
Ericmtm2: remember ?
xoAli3Babixo: psh why do you get to make all the decisions!
Ericmtm2: they already happened
Ericmtm2: a few years a go
Ericmtm2: sorry honey
xoAli3Babixo: i say we live in a castle
Ericmtm2: you can make some now
xoAli3Babixo: no we live in a hot air balloon!
Ericmtm2: that world be HOT !
Ericmtm2: bo the hot air balloon is are vacation home
Ericmtm2: lol
Ericmtm2: *no the
xoAli3Babixo: then were do we live
Ericmtm2: are new castle
xoAli3Babixo: yay!
Ericmtm2: it is still being built
Ericmtm2: so we have 2 lie in are 1 room apartment for now
Ericmtm2: but it is all good for now :-P
xoAli3Babixo: no no u got it all wrong we live in a hotel sweet where we sleep on a love bed
Ericmtm2: i sleep under the bed
Ericmtm2: you do on top
Ericmtm2: of the bed
Ericmtm2: women should always get the best
xoAli3Babixo: yea u get the couch
Ericmtm2: unless u invite me in
xoAli3Babixo: lol jk'
Ericmtm2: damn
Ericmtm2: lol
xoAli3Babixo: ok ill invite u in just this once
xoAli3Babixo: OMG do u know what would be cool?
Ericmtm2: no ?
xoAli3Babixo: if u had a water bed with fish in it
Ericmtm2: a go cart track
Ericmtm2: lol
xoAli3Babixo: me and emily are gonna try that one of these days
Ericmtm2: fish in it would smell
Ericmtm2: but i know what u mean
Ericmtm2: lol
Ericmtm2: water beds arn't that comftorable
xoAli3Babixo: well fine
Ericmtm2: we can get a normal king size bed
Ericmtm2: lol
xoAli3Babixo: normal?
xoAli3Babixo: no no no its going to have...
Ericmtm2: oh yea u wan;t a expinsive everyting
Ericmtm2: lol
xoAli3Babixo: psh fine normal works
Ericmtm2: we are going to have a in door pool
Ericmtm2: *indoor
xoAli3Babixo: no no we should get one of those outdoor pools with those big bubles around it
Ericmtm2: big bubbles ?
Ericmtm2: a cover ?
xoAli3Babixo: yea
xoAli3Babixo: haha
Ericmtm2: what els do we need ?
Ericmtm2: a love sac 2 cuddle
Ericmtm2: lol
xoAli3Babixo: cuddle? lol
xoAli3Babixo: iv never heard a guy say that b4 haha
Ericmtm2: well now u have
Ericmtm2: lol
Ericmtm2: we need a big kitchen
xoAli3Babixo: yea
Ericmtm2: because i love cooking
xoAli3Babixo: u cook?!
Ericmtm2: ALWAYS
xoAli3Babixo: haha well atleast one of is knows how
Ericmtm2: i have to make my breakfast and dinner every night
Ericmtm2: because my parents fix crap
xoAli3Babixo: haha i just stick to the basics....u know like cerial
Ericmtm2: lol
Ericmtm2: well anyways back to are house what els do we need
xoAli3Babixo: we need a car!! duuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrr
Ericmtm2: no
xoAli3Babixo: yes!
Ericmtm2: we call a limo every time
xoAli3Babixo: no but we need a convertable limo!
Ericmtm2: i really love you
Ericmtm2: lol :-[
xoAli3Babixo: lol
Ericmtm2: we need a big play room in are house and guest room
Ericmtm2: the play room has the computers and all that stuff
xoAli3Babixo: no no thats called a computer room! a play room is where we keep all of our...
xoAli3Babixo: toys!
Ericmtm2: toys^
Ericmtm2: lol
xoAli3Babixo: lol
Ericmtm2: we need a pool table
Ericmtm2: and air hockey
Ericmtm2: table
xoAli3Babixo: oo we should have a bar in our hosue too!
Ericmtm2: no
Ericmtm2: lol
xoAli3Babixo: c'min!
xoAli3Babixo: mon*
xoAli3Babixo: how will i tain myself!
Ericmtm2: g outsie by the pool
Ericmtm2: *go
Ericmtm2: and get drunk
Ericmtm2: lol
xoAli3Babixo: lol well that just leads to a major night of skinny dipping.......or was that yhour plan
Ericmtm2: that wasn't my plan but it is now
Ericmtm2: lol
xoAli3Babixo: lol
Ericmtm2: guess what
xoAli3Babixo: what?
Ericmtm2: i seriously love you
xoAli3Babixo: well thats hwy we got married!



Blondey5678793: haha alex ur a dork!

^why thank you haha



SliqRydR: MONKIES!!!
SliqRydR: er, hi
xoAli3Babixo: HIPPOS!
xoAli3Babixo: hey sup?!
SliqRydR: hippos?
SliqRydR: that's all you could say?
SliqRydR: my monkey could kick your hippos ass anyday
SliqRydR: waait, how fat is your hippo?
xoAli3Babixo: 10000000000000000000000 pounds!
SliqRydR: damn, that's enough to implode the earth
xoAli3Babixo: all id have to do is sit my hippo on ur monkey and ur done for haha
SliqRydR: haha, my monkey is scared
SliqRydR: wow, that came out strange...




~muahahaha i love my friends



~I GOT A HAIR CUT TODAY!! I LOVE IT


~ I miss gabby today :(


~ME AND EMILY FOUND OUT THE LUNCHLADYS HAVE A SECRET LANGUAGE FOR TELLING U UR FAT! hahaha
lunchlady "bye blue eyes.."
emily "ARE YOU CALLING ME FAT!"


haha


OH OH there is a chain of mono going around! haha almost all my friends have it

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*Gabbys leavin!* [09 Mar 2004|10:07pm]
http://www.picturetrail.com/alibabi89 <---PICS! theres alot more i need to download but my comp is crazy. so hopefuly ill have better ones up soon!



*sniff sniff* Gabbys leaving for california 2morrow!!!!! GR! haha a whole week with out my gabby baby is gonna be torture!

--so me and gabby wore our jean mini's today.....haha i took pics but only one of gabby cuz she hates takin pics.....so i have sum of me and lilly

-EMILYS SICK!!!!!!!!!!! :( this makes me very sad!!



-OMG the whole adam deal sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ic ant believe that happend!


haha ok on the bus me and brad were talkin...
bran "oh! this one time i cut down my moms bush and..."
me "WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!"
brad" OMG no alex the one in her front yard!"
me "oh god!!!!"
brad "OMG alex u dirty thing!"
^haha it was amusing.



me and iden also talked on the bus, hes so freakin cool*HOT*
seriously lol hes the funniest kid ever!

iden "shut up bitch or ill kikc yo AASSS!"
*brad gets up*
iden "AH DONT HURT ME!!"
^haha


tyler slipped on fries today..haha.


me and ashley did some mad james bond note passing today,,,woot woot!


me and melanie were mr chistmans duckilings today!!


ok so lilly asks for a pen so i give her my pink one, then she calls my pretty pen a hurtful name cuz it wasnt working...
HAHA but then i gotta make fun of her cuz the reason why it wasnt working was cuz the cap was still on!

oh god me and emiy ate so much at lunch today...like ALOTT! u dont even understand!



me:"ASH! dustin and haley broke up!!"
ash "OH are you gonna make your move!"
me "HELL YES!!!"
^haha no i dont like dustin hes just a cool kid..




you know what piss;s me off is how jason doesnt even try. He can do more than he thinks, and i tried to help him but geesh!

-----OMG i got the cutest shirts today!!!!!!!!!1 i got....11 of em haha theyr awsome tho!!



--ok so me and my mom went to safeway...where we saw stephen dan mike blake and heather.....OHMYGOD i love them so much!





haha so on our way home my mom let me drive,,,,then shes all "step on the clutch.....GAS ALEX GAS!" haha then we started rolling back and she started screamin so i hit wutever i could....fortunatly it was the break! ROFL it was interesting



I DIED MY HAIR TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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*Gabbys leavin!* [09 Mar 2004|10:07pm]
*sniff sniff* Gabbys leaving for california 2morrow!!!!! GR! haha a whole week with out my gabby baby is gonna be torture!

--so me and gabby wore our jean mini's today.....haha i took pics but only one of gabby cuz she hates takin pics.....so i have sum of me and lilly

-EMILYS SICK!!!!!!!!!!! :( this makes me very sad!!



-OMG the whole adam deal sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ic ant believe that happend!


haha ok on the bus me and brad were talkin...
bran "oh! this one time i cut down my moms bush and..."
me "WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!"
brad" OMG no alex the one in her front yard!"
me "oh god!!!!"
brad "OMG alex u dirty thing!"
^haha it was amusing.



me and iden also talked on the bus, hes so freakin cool*HOT*
seriously lol hes the funniest kid ever!

iden "shut up bitch or ill kikc yo AASSS!"
*brad gets up*
iden "AH DONT HURT ME!!"
^haha


tyler slipped on fries today..haha.


me and ashley did some mad james bond note passing today,,,woot woot!


me and melanie were mr chistmans duckilings today!!


ok so lilly asks for a pen so i give her my pink one, then she calls my pretty pen a hurtful name cuz it wasnt working...
HAHA but then i gotta make fun of her cuz the reason why it wasnt working was cuz the cap was still on!

oh god me and emiy ate so much at lunch today...like ALOTT! u dont even understand!



me:"ASH! dustin and haley broke up!!"
ash "OH are you gonna make your move!"
me "HELL YES!!!"
^haha no i dont like dustin hes just a cool kid..




you know what piss;s me off is how jason doesnt even try. He can do more than he thinks, and i tried to help him but geesh!

-----OMG i got the cutest shirts today!!!!!!!!!1 i got....11 of em haha theyr awsome tho!!



--ok so me and my mom went to safeway...where we saw stephen dan mike blake and heather.....OHMYGOD i love them so much!





haha so on our way home my mom let me drive,,,,then shes all "step on the clutch.....GAS ALEX GAS!" haha then we started rolling back and she started screamin so i hit wutever i could....fortunatly it was the break! ROFL it was interesting



I DIED MY HAIR TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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*John Robert Powers* [07 Mar 2004|12:56am]
OK so today i called Barb to tell her i didnt want to be in her modeling agency anymore. I mean i liked it but they didnt let you go public till after so many years.
So i went to the agency dep and filled out sum papers and they want sum photo shots of me by 2morrow so they can evaluate me and stuff. So all day iv been trying to get sum good shots but its kinda hard doin it by urself haha im very untalented. So yea i put down for my top 2 agencys as
#1 John Robert Powers <----HOPEFULLY ILL GET IN
#2 Barizon <---which is ok
So i dunno what im gonna do yet.


Yea so today kinda sucked...cant wait till monday!

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*darlingggggg* [06 Mar 2004|01:18pm]
OK so today i was thinking "hey instead of moving to cali with my dad that i dont know maybe i should just go to job corp (for those of u who dont know its a place where you can live away from your parents and they pay you)" cuz when i had to go to that stupid this for dropping out of school they talked about it and the assistant there said you could come at age...15! so i called there today and the manager says.....u gotta be 16! so fuck that lol.

So i had this other GRAND idea! Since i got a job yesturday *FUCK YES!! WOO FUCKING HOO!* which is where dan stephen blake mike sara etc work.....and most of em have their own house i can move in with them!!!!!!!!!!! I already talked to dan about it and he said he would but hed have to talk to beth (his gf) about it which i know she hates me so that prolly a no..butt i bet blake would! am i a fucking genious or what?! haha yeaits kinda sad at how hard im working to get away from my house and family but hey.


...I GOT A JOB TODAY!!!!!! haha
--al--

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*SELF PRIDE IS DA BOMB* [04 Mar 2004|09:03pm]

OK before i go into the big stuff...KEATONS MY LOVE IS MOVING AWAY FROM ME!!!! haha and im going to school 2morow to see him even tho im sick so u better feel special kiddo! <3

 

OK  now for the big stuff. Read everything first before clicking on the lj cut!! Oh and btw im not trying to be all dramatic or anything...its just what i was thinking about today.

Diary Entries i wrote a couple months ago (haha yes alex has a diary)Collapse )

Ha I kinda laugh now at these diary entrys I wrote. Cuz the fact is as long ago I wrote this, everything is still the EXACT same. Everything that is, except me. Iv changed so much, and im actually proud of myself. Yes, I fucking HATE drama. Its seriously the worst thing in the world. But iv finally found happiness in myself. It just makes me wanna scream it in my familys face for all those times they were never there. But looking back, I realize, never once were they there to support me, never once were they there to guide my way. Ever since I was three iv made my own decisions, iv had to pressure myself into doing homework since they never really cared enough, iv had make my own appointments, iv done everything on my own. I don’t even let them get to me anymore. I mean whatever iv wanted most, they were never there. Whenever I needed their support, they did the exact opposite. "alex you wouldn’t survive, you wouldn’t last a day" haha but I laugh now cuz I know I can. Iv made it this far in life, and got this well in life, on my own. I just..ahh wanna go screaming it outloud to every one. That I can make it in life. I will be something in the future. Its just a great feeling yea know?! And not only that, I havent took my medication for over 2 weeks. This is me. Im not covering up anymore yea kno? I hate my mom for what she did. I hate my family for not being there. But I don’t need them. Cuz whether what they say or don’t say, this is me and I can make it. Im not gonna let another ben come into my life. Im not gonna let any1 tell me I cant do something. Ah do you know how great this feels?! Im actually heading towards something in life. I know I am. And that is the best feeling ever.

But at the same time I wouldn’t have made it without my friends. I love you guys so much! You don’t even understand. I will be here for you ALWAYS. I will stand by you forever…u can take my breath away……hahahahaha sry I just listened to that song. BUT I LOVE YOU GUYS BEYOND YOUR BELIEFS! YOU GUYS MEAN THE WORLD TO ME!!!

*ALI*

(kiss me)

*AH* [03 Mar 2004|09:20pm]
haha im gonna cry! i hate being sick! its horrible!! haha i blame it on emily again! ughh mr burdon called today saying i had "many non completed assingments". yea yea. oh i put on a new icon! i hate how i have to make em all smaller! lol how do u make em bigger?! ahh anyways more later i gotta go sleep.
peace out my darlings.

(kiss me)

*haha* [02 Mar 2004|11:19pm]
http://www.livejournal.com/users/alilovescharli/
^hahahaha i made charlie a journal!!!!!! wow im in a weird fucking mood. Maybe its cuz of all the drugs im on cuz i have th flu...which sucks ass. btw yall im in love with emily b. johnson! and gabriella j wolman! <--haha ya i cant spell or pronounce either one of their middle names. haha god damn im tired i love all of u!
sweet dreams
--alexio--

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